Category: Should i be posting THIS?

 The World in this Corner is dull...

I'm not doing anything...I know other parts of the World is alive,people are bubbling with,energy,aactivities,excitement and I'm just here,typing on my phone,wasting my Life. Doing nothing great,nothing that could make my Life greater or more interesting ..Sighs...

I'm reading tho,

A Brokens People Playlist. 

But everything is still dull, in a way that is Sad...If i don't get up and be,My life might be Sad and quiet and empty and lacking of action,and everything exciting throughout Life. 

I don't even edit what I write anymore,

Editing makes me strive for perfection and you all agree right?That perfection is not attainable.

What we are now, without too much thoughts, is as perfect as perfect can be...so i'm going with that Energy.

2022...The year's just begun...I'm not sure it has hit me that last year is not 2020 but 2021 and 2019 is two years ago and 2017 is like far far back.

2017 feels like the year I was born.

It's the year i started living...

My memory of life,when I began doing things and it stored in my memory starts from 2017

2017,I finished Secondary School

Had my first boyfriend,

Went out alot...Met people...Fell in love,almost got raped,established friendships. 

2017 is that year.

It feels like Yesterday...yet today is already the 6th? day of January 2022 and 2023 is approaching fast!! 

and I know my life is changing..

it is changing in little ways I can't quite see..and I'm waiting for it to change completely,

To new interiors,new exteriors...Everything New and good...I am almost tempted to lie in bed,snail around and wait for this change to come

The Irony is i have to work,put myself out there,let my voice be heard,join the internet boldly and let the Whole Wide World know who i am ..

The world is digitalizing...I don't want to be a commenter on other people's post,be in the audience and just clap and watch..mI want to take the stage and act too,perform,do something and be seen.

But, I'm afraid...Yet i've been afraid for too long, that myself,seeing myself afraid is tired...And the excuse of being afraid,the fear of thinking that i'm not good enough is no longer Valid. 

Again.. .I have to act...If not i will be lost and there will be no reason or person to blame.

Whew!! Lol...All this talk. 

I came to drop a note.Strings of feelings,reading the first part of 'A Broken Peoples Playlist' made me feel for someone,something we use to be.Here goes;

Dear Ch❤,

I'm sorry that when it's time to type i forget what i want to say,because mostly, i say them already in my head,give long prologues like this and end up forgetting the main point,which is;

I love you.

And it's strange because I don't know what Love is.. 

My heart with Ifexxx is free...No worries...Pure free peace

But with it's you,It's Concern...Prayers...Dreams...Wishes...Imaginations...Regrets,my heart is tangled up when it's you.

I pray for you even when i don't know if it's even my place to.

I would forsake the whole world for you and I don't know if its a  good thing or bad thing...

People fall in love...Some 're destined to be...I don't know where we belong.

But a part of me longs for freedom, because it feels like i don't have  security in this love.I don't know if it's mine to want this much.

But if we're meant to be i pray we be.

I don't want to wallow in regetrs of what could have been...I want to Be

Just Be and know this is how It's meant to go. 

 Stay Safe Ima

 Be well Hun

Thrive Baby 

Be well Nkem

I'll find a sweeter name for you in future..I will ❤.